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[Verse 1]
[Em]
I have been waking up with
blood in my mouth most days.
Chocking on the metallic taste
that coats my tongue.
Can't remeber if i promised today
would hr the last, if so i lied.
That infinitesimal moment of my
true thoughts will fade.
Overcome by my need for you.
I am a lie. I am a sickness.
I am decaying.
I feel the life pouring from my veins,
As I so feverishly try to shock life back into them,
The way you so effortlessly did.
Maybe I should just end this here.
I wish that the promise of learning
From their example would
die on my lips,
So that my words bear weight again.
My sanity won't let me count how
many I've lost.
Content only counting hours.
Carefully planning,
facing no aspect of life.
As beautiful as this hole is,
I need to climb out.

[Verse 2]
The first time i contemplated [Em]death,
I was 13.
Took a knife from my kitchen counter,
I did not know hot to perceive this.

[Verse 3]
After eight, nine years of dealing with these thoughts
[Em]
I couldn't comprehend why i was feeling
this way.
For the longest time i contemplated death as the only escape

[Verse 4]
[Em]And
the only way to make myself rid of the
feelings i have felt.

[Verse 5]
I've lost to many friends to feel that way anymore,
[Em]
To know that my life is not
a continuation of theirs.
So i sit at home, and i waste away
And i grow tired of the things i love.